National Novel in Poetry Writing Month – which I just invented, or at least the name.
So long away from writing, the crazy uncertainties of my life blocking up all the passageways that should be open. But here I am, trying again.
The first lines of this poem came to me this morning, I didn’t know where it was going and still I don’t, but here it is. NaNo(inPo)WriMo #1
first poem after long silence
late afternoon out to the barn
keys and can of leaded gas in hand
rusty slide of door rolling back
grandpa’s faded truck
door locks never used not even once
lifting the steel hood to check
the connections on last week’s
new battery, pulling out
the cardboard scrap to check
the size of the oil stain
rusty chrome of door handle
hinges and your voice both
rumbling scratches so long
since either prayed
the smell of him might still remain
the imprint of his left fingers on
the back of the choke lever
youtube says pull it one half inch
but the heart is looking now, seeing
more than a camera ever could
pulling the lever as far as it will come
spraying WD-40, sliding it in and out again
until it comes no farther
how can the key be so small?
In it goes, turning and hoping
turning and holding breath
turning and a click and a sputter
feet waltzing:
pedal choke clutch
pedal choke clutch
pedal choke clutch
sputtering and dying
sputtering and gasping
sputtering and shuddering
and then
the closest thing to a purr this old engine
ever had
letting the engine run
lying down across the seat
decades of dust and yet the smell
of hay and ponies and the carhartts
soaked with gas and engine oil he
wore home from work
six days a week
perfume of a life lived with
limited choices, pony manure enough
to grow tomatoes wider than
a supper plate
just laying, the jerky engine idle
the rhythm of your
conception
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